[TW: religion, sex]
I have never been to church
At least not in the religious sense
I’ve toured churches for the architecture, history, and art
Yet I’ve spent more time praying to gods I don’t believe in than I would like to admit
On my knees, in my bed, and quietly in my head
Forgive me father for I have sinner
I’m sorry Mom I know I’m not the daughter you wanted
Holy Mary Mother of God pray for us sinners
Dad I strive for your levels of stoicism but my emotions overcome me
Intended to be a holy virgin but destined to be a sinner
Turning water into wine and drowning myself in it
Blessing the meal before me
On my knees
Between his legs
Praying I will be blessed with a baptism
I’m the most unholy person to have ever been born on a Sunday
Expected to be a Saint
Destined to be a Sinner
I Wait For Death Like A Soldier's Wife 
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